7/05/2006

Thoughts on Work

For the first few weeks of my summer job, I thought that I would truly enjoy working at the U.S. attorneys office somewhere down the road. I have lately come to the conclusion that I probably will not. See, I suffer from a unhealthy sense of paranoia. As this summer has progressed I have felt pleased that I am working to put the bad guys in prison for a long time. I feel like I am helping society and that the world is a better place for the work that I do. But when I come home from work I drive down the street and I look at people and I start to wonder. Does my neighbor have a meth lab in his basement, are the guys working on my house terrorists, is the waiter at the restaurant looking to steal an identity? Intellectually I believe that most people are not going to actively take steps to screw over someone else. But I have first hand experience that those people are out there. And with the exception of meth addicts who are still using, they look just like normal people for the most part. So I am starting to believe that my own belief in the goodness of people wont survive working with or against the criminal element for extended periods of time. The good news is that this is just a summer job, and now I know.

2 comments:

Fishfrog said...

Statistically speaking, if you have a neighbor on your left and a neighbor on your right, at least one of them will be operating a meth lab. The statistics don't lie.

I used to think that people were innately good. Now I think its probably closer to the truth that people are, at their core, amoral. The more I think about it, in fact, the less I believe in a right or wrong, a good or bad. And I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing.

Arfanser said...

I agree with you that a person cannot be completely defined as good or bad. But an act I think can be. Cooking Meth is bad. No good comes of it for anyone. And potentially for me, I or my family dies from fumes or in an explosion. While a person may need money and so they steal my car, that is still a bad act because a person's need should never trump another person's rights.

So instead of writing what I did, I should have written, "I dont think I can handle dealing with people every day, when all I know of them are the bad acts they have done."